I know better. I KNOW BETTER!
A few days ago I went to the Dollar Tree and bought Easter candy to fill plastic eggs. My four kids still love Easter egg hunts, even in their twenties. (I LOVE that about them!) My oldest son has 1/3 of an acre, perfect for hiding eggs. We are planning an Easter feast and dammit, I don’t want to be sidelined. Not like the last four holidays, anyway.
So you would think I would do ANYTHING to avoid a wave. (You already know what’s coming.) Yup. I ate Easter candy as I filled the eggs. At first it was just a few handfuls of Good N Plenty’s. But my sugar craving kicked into high gear. I fondled the bag of spice drops lovingly. Just one or two wouldn’t hurt, right? The jelly beans looked kinda sassy and scrumptous too. Yum. Yum. The only thing I didn’t eat was the chocolate. (Deathly allergic to it, of all things.)
Right about a few hours after my sugar binge, the tingles started. The tooth/jaw pain kicked in. Muscles began twitching. Electric zaps. Back of head pressure. Eye pain. Burning, burning, burning like a witch in Salem. Dizzy. Weak.
SIGH. I KNOW BETTER THAN TO EAT CRAP!
I am tugging on my wetsuit as I write these words, ready to ride this wave till it peters out. Crossing my fingers I haven’t set myself back too much, and that Sunday I can enjoy my children and their significant others and Sadie the lab puppy.
If anyone had tried to convince me, before withdrawal, that sugar (and food dyes) could do this to a body, I’d have laughed out loud in their face. It sounds so unbelievable. But what about withdrawal is believable? I’m a very imaginative person, (teaching a creativity class at Stanford next month!) and there is no way I could have ever dreamed this shit up about withdrawal.
Gotta scoot. Wetsuit on. Riding this wave like I own it till it decides to play itself out.
Making a note to self…no more sugar binges. EVER.
Hi Jenn, How long has it been since you had a wave? Are you sure the sugar set this off? I just wonder sometimes if a wave happens because it is going to happen anyway. Appreciate you SO much.
I did exactly the same thing a month ago. Little by little I kept putting more and more in my mouth. It tasted soooo good. I thought maybe, just maybe, I was past that. Thought I was getting away with it until I woke up the next morning feeling like I was in month 3. It’s been a month and I’m finally feeling some better. You’ll probably be fine for Easter since you’re further out than me. Sigh. Will we ever be able to eat sweets and normal food again?
NAH.. it was the sugar. I am 1000% sure of it. And the dyes in the candy too.
Hope so! But if not, that’s not the end of the world. It’s not good for us anyway. 🙂 Thanks for the reply.
I know Jenn! I’m so bummed that I am going to one of my fav places to visit in a few weeks….Napa Valley….and all of us are going wine tasting, but I know better to not indulge, but it is going to be extremely difficult!!!!! I have to go because it is one of my dear friend’s big 40…otherwise I wouldn’t torture myself like that….aaaarrrrrggggghhhhhhhh!!!!
Now I know for sure, the sweets do that! ; ( I have so some left..been eating bananas like mad 2 hope 2 replace cravings n fruit..have 2 rid of sweets I have left. Was gifted cheese cake and took only half of a small 1..and for kitty as he loves it but..uh oh..my heads been so high and body aches and griping. Pain!! I still get upset with drs. In a a way..to self..thanks for that. Always used sweets as comfort. Wish you and all well with that. Congrats Jennifer on your teaching a class. Happy Easter. Thankful for you and all the support I see in hear : )
The last time I ate sugar I got high very positive minded then the following day down and thinking of suicide. I protect my sugar abstinence. Also eat very little flour products as they increase hunger. Takes a lot of time and planning. I’m on a whole foods plan. Nothing processes no additives or artificial colors/flavors as swelling and fibromyalgia pain would set in. That’s good you know your body Jen. I’ve been off sugar so long that fruits sometimes are too sweet! It’s not easy but I have to remember the definition of insanity- doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.
I’m allergic to sulfites so it was easy to give up wine. As a recovered alcoholic I avoid certain places. I hope you can enjoy the outing! I try to focus on the people not the food and drink. But it can be hard! 🙂
I used to use sweets as a reward and ended up overweight. Now I get my sweets from fresh and dried fruits. I’m in the Nutritarian food plan by Dr. Joel Fuhrman. It’s a healthy way to eat and I’ve gotten off of many Meds.