Eight years free!
Sunday, June 23, I celebrated eight glorious years of being benzo free. What a wonderful feeling to have that much distance away from the little pill that slowly destroyed my brain and body. Life is incredibly good these days! I am in much better shape than I was on any day while on the drug, or going through withdrawal. Wherever you are on your journey of getting free, please know that you will continue to heal. You’ll reclaim your life and you’ll discover blessings that you can’t even imagine now.
I shared this story with the members of my Mornings With Jenn support group and the Acceptance Workshop. It speaks deeply to my heart. The story goes as such:
There was a group of women in a Bible Study on the book of Malachi. As they were studying chapter three, they came across verse three, which says: “He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver.” This verse puzzled the women and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God.
One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the group at their next Bible Study. That week, this woman called up a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work.
She didn’t mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver. As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities.
The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot then she thought again about the verse, that “He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver.” She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined. The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed.
The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, how do you know when the silver is fully refined? He smiled at her and answered, “Oh, that’s easy – when I see my image in it.”
If today you are feeling the heat of the fire, remember that God has His eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.
I know that God was with me as the fire of benzo withdrawal burned away all that was ugly and painful in my life; as it burned away my sense of separation from others and God. And I know that God finally could see His reflection in me because I allowed my heart to remain open and kept turning to love. To forgiveness. To mercy. To compassion. To oneness. I know that you can keep turning to these things as well and that your heart will be filled and overflowing with grace, love, and peace.
Support and Workshops.
Mornings With Jenn will begin a new month of live support on Tuesday, July 9 through August 2. We will meet Tuesdays and Wednesdays, 9 A.M. Pacific, (for 4 weeks) at my private Facebook group, Mornings With Jenn where you can share your questions. If you can’t attend, the video will be posted for you to watch at your convenience. The group is a positive place to share your concerns as well as your victories and triumphs. I always sneak in some of the social neuroscience (polyvagal theory) that is so helpful to anyone wanting a stronger and more peaceful spiritual path. If you have any questions, please message me.
The Acceptance Workshop will also be offered again starting Monday, July 15th through August 8th. There is classwork to read on the website and homework/journaling assignments Monday through Fridays. We will meet live for discussion on Mondays and Wednesdays at 9 A.M. on a private Facebook group to cover the course work. We will also meet the last Friday of the workshop to review. These sessions will be recorded for your convenience to watch at a later date if you cannot join us, or if you wish to review the information. If you have any questions, please message me. If you’ve enrolled in this workshop in the past, you are welcome to take it again. I am always adding to and polishing the content.
Healing With Love workshop will also be offered. It will run for four weeks starting July 15th August 8th. There is coursework on the website to read Mondays through Fridays and homework/journaling assignments. We will meet live on a private Facebook group for discussions Mondays through Thursdays at 11 A.M. This course will be a deeper dive into polyvagal theory as well as the 12 Roots Of Suffering. Please be well enough to follow along so that you can get the most out of the workshop. If you have any questions, please message me. If you’ve enrolled in this workshop in the past, you are welcome to take it again. I am always adding to and polishing the content.
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