I made it safely through California. I visited with five different benzo people. It felt good to talk to people who have mostly healed (and who helped me through that 3 year wave I hit) and to give hope to others still suffering.
I am now in Sedona, Arizona. The red rocks are breathtaking. I always said that when I healed I was going to visit the Grand Canyon. It’s about 2.5 hours away. I am debating about visiting soon, or on my way home. I am asking God where I should go every day. I’m sure he will give me direction.
I am learning how to do so many things on my own that I was unable to do in withdrawal. I am also learning to ask for help when I need it. For example, after days on the road living out of my van, I needed a shower. I asked a woman at an AA meeting if I could stop by her house and use her bathroom. She was kind enough to say yes. Let me tell you, a hot shower when you have developed a “funk” that keeps people at a distance is pure heaven! 🙂
I am happy. I am content. I am excited to wake up every day and start the adventure. Life is unbelievably sweet.
I don’t have much access to the internet, so please pardon the days in between posts. I will put up videos as soon as I am able. (I am at the Sedona public library posting this.)
If you are still suffering in withdrawal, please rest assured that it does come to an end. I know I felt that God had abandoned me in my suffering. I see now that wasn’t the case AT ALL. He was there all along, and the experience changed me in the most profound way. I am sure God is with you, and that when you are healed, you will be in an amazing place.
I’ll check in again soon. I’ll do my best to see as many of you as I can. I’ll be on the road at least another 11 weeks, unless something changes.
From the road…. with my love,