Before I got benzo sick, I was studying social and interpersonal neuroscience. I have always been fascinated by the brain. I find it sorta ironic that my brain’s GABA receptors (and who knows what else) got terribly damaged by a pill I took as directed by my physician, and I would need to heal my own brain.
The video below doesn’t show GABA receptors per se, but it does show you the complexity of your brain. Maybe after seeing this, you will have more patience with the healing process your brain is going through. Also, you will note that one of the images shows neuronal axons reaching out to make connections to others. I firmly believe what neuroscientists say about “what fires together, wires together.” If you cope well by accepting your symptoms, you are in essence preparing yourself for a much better time after you recover. You are training your brain ( and central nervous system) to be less anxious, and I assume, far more resilient.
Enjoy the video.

This kind of stuff fascinates me.
Two things strike me about this video. The first is the nearly infinite complexity of the wiring. As the narrator says, without the wiring diagram, it is impossible to discern with any current imaging technique the differences between any two brains – differences which may cause vastly diverse behavior patterns and abilities in the individuals to whom those brains belong. As such, it is in the wiring itself where any “true disorder” may exist. The “disorder” is actually the faulty wiring. The faulty wiring results in behaviors and symptoms that the DSM classifies as disorders. So, any drugs that are prescribed to treat the symptoms that the DSM calls disorders have little likelihood of doing anything beneficial except by sheer accident.
Of course, many of the “disorders” set forth in the DSM have nothing to do with the wiring of the brain and are merely a result of life experiences that have caused symptoms of depression, anxiety and so on – simply responses to life – not the result of faulty wiring.
The second thing that strikes me is that benzo w/d likely includes more than just GABA receptors. I believe much more is affected and that is why w/d can take a very long time for some – either in repairing the damage or rewiring itself to bypass the damage done by benzos. The wiring itself is very likely a matter of genetics. Of course, no one really knows.
No matter what is going on at the wiring level, as you say, it is important to accept w/d with all the sx knowing that they will fade and disappear in time. The brain will heal itself – that is a certainty.
Thank you for sending this fascinating video which shows some of the intricacies of the brain. May we all heal soon!