Hello my dear benzo buddies!
I made a few recent posts private. I will make them public again in a while. They aren’t deleted, just hidden from public view.
Please take good care of yourselves. I know it’s a long, hard, tiring, lonely journey. But there is an end to it. Our receptors do eventually heal from the damage done to them. Our bodies, brains, minds, and souls do recover.
Try to focus on the things you do have, not what you have lost, or don’t have. Focus on the love in your life, not the resentments or anger. Be grateful. You have breath in your lungs, a pulse…. THANK YOU GOD! Focus on this moment. The past is past, the future hasn’t arrived. You only have this moment.
BTW, I recently applied for an amazing job that I would be honored to have. It’s a position right at the heart of my two passions, youth development and agriculture. It would be a true blessing to finally be able to go from being so ill, to working at a job that totally sings to my heart and soul. I am trying not to get my hopes up too much and to trust that my life is in God’s hands, but I am excited about the possibility of being of service to an amazing organization. I am now well enough from wd and the flu, to step foot back into the world. You will get there too. One day at a time.
Keep holding onto hope. It is the best cure we have.
Oh, one more thing. Bliss called me two days ago. It was good to talk to her. She always touches my heart. She is an angel among us. She reminded me that we all heal. It all goes away. So keep the faith.
Keep fighting everyone. It’s a battle worth fighting, because you are worth fighting for.
I love you all so much. I am so very grateful to be walking beside you in this long and grueling journey.
Jenn
PS I posted this shortly after Don made a post so keep scrolling down for his AMAZING story. You don’t want to miss it.
Good luck with the job and God bless. Xx
Thank you so much for your encouragement. I really needed that word. The daily battle to just get through the day is sometimes overwhelming but I do see progress. It is just such a relief to know that others are making their way through the fog and into a happy and fulfiling life once again. I pray that you get the job of your dreams.
Jenn, I am so happy for you! I wish you the best of the best on your new job! I hope one day that I will be able to tell everyone my success story after benzos, but until then, I’m still fighting!
God Bless you!
Brian
Hi Jenn,
Standing beside you with hope and prayers as you move ahead in your recovery and your daily life. I hope the job comes through for you!
I love that you garden and so love the black cat in the photo!
Lily
thinking good thoughts about the job- it sounds like a great fit, and you are READY. You have come a long way and I am proud to have been there stumbling along. glad you are well
Susan
Jennifer, your words are so touching and real. I have been healing for almost 19 months now and like you, I feel so very fortunate for my good health. I so agree with your advice of never give up hope. And if hope seems lost, just keep on trying different things. Time seems to be our ally.
Good luck with you job search. No doubt you will succeed at anything you do.
Jenn,
Thank you for that post. I really needed it today. Been tapering slowly over two years and still have at least six more months and feeling crappy anyway. Doing everything “right” doesn’t always help, it seems. Your post gave me some hope. I’m glad you’re so much better and best wishes on the job.
xo
Thank you for your post. I’m five months into withdrawal and although I’m experiencing more frequent better days, I still feel hormonally sabotoged and am often sleep deprived. I can’t wait for the day when normal sleep returns.
Thank you for the encouragement. I have to keep reminding myself that I am healing slowly and will get better and better as you have.
It’s so good to know that there are others out there, going through this and maintaining a helpful and optomistic attitude! It make me feel so much better!