I had a good weekend in spite of the tingles and bone pain that doesn’t seem to want to leave me alone, at least not yet. Saturday I visited Stanford to check out the room I will be teaching in. I’m leading a workshop in May on how to boost your creative brain power. I’ve come a long way from the mental horror show I used to wake up to day after day after day… (We DO heal!) I admired Rodin’s Burghers of Calais. (Their pain and suffering felt familiar.)
Driving home on highway 280 was this snazzy sports car I had never seen before. It was a Bugatti Veyron. Traffic slowed to watch it. I didn’t pay attention to the driver, but wondered if it was billionaire Larry Ellison. He lives not too far from me. There is SO much wealth here in Silicon Valley. It reminds me that there is abundance, and I can rebuild my life after benzo withdrawal depleted my material wealth. I’m not saying I will ever drive a Veyron, but Hey! Good News! I won’t be on food stamps forever! If you have lost much to withdrawal, please know that once healed, you too, will rebuild.
Sunday morning found me at a 12 Step Study Workshop in Palo Alto (it nourishes my soul). Once home I shimmied into my overalls and, yup, you guessed it, played in my garden the rest of the day. I planted a dozen new annuals to replace the winter bloomers who were spent. It was a wonderful day. Neighbors stopped by and shared a lot of love. Lots of new poppies blooming!
Today is in the lower 80s. Bright sunshine and the promise of good things ahead. It’s wonderful to be back out into normal life.
If you are still healing, please know that one day, you will have your very own weekend wows to experience. You may not drive by a Veyron (how many people can afford a 2 million dollar car?) but there are surprises waiting for you that are going make you smile. There are good things just out on the horizon. Be patient.
One of the ways I work at being patient is to pray for willingness. “God, please help me to be willing to take one day at a time. To be willing to trust that everything is just the way it is supposed to be. To be willing to be patient. That’s not to say that it always worked while I was recovering, but it helps. I pray for willingness now more than ever, as God and I slowly put Humpty Dumpty back together again.
What was your weekend like? Feel free to share. What are you looking forward to this spring or summer? Let us know.