It’s Thursday. Cue the Beach Boy’s music.
I’m surfing a big wave.
I will be 26 months out on the 23rd.
I was having some good windows and a great deal of hope. Still have the hope, but the window slammed shut.
I will ride this one out just as I have all the others.
Looking at dogs to adopt to keep me company in the garden. One looked really sweet, she only had three legs! I can identify with having a handicap.
If you are struggling today as I am, please do your best to distract and to detach. I am working very hard at not having any expectations about my recovery anymore, and taking each day as it comes at me.
I don’t know if there is anything after this life, so I am going to do my very best to make the most of this one, limping along, but grateful and hopeful.
If you are out a long time like I am and wonder if your symptoms are still withdrawal (How on God’s green earth can it last THIS LONG?) I can say, yes, your symptoms are probably still benzo withdrawal syndrome induced. But please see a doctor if you are worried.
I started this journey October 2010. That was my tapering start. I CT june 2011.
What a journey. That’s all I know to say.
Hold on everyone. The vets say we heal. I am going to believe them. What other option do I have? 🙂
Ok, gotta scoot and pull on my wetsuit, and find my board. Wheeeeeee!!!
Oh dear you are so far out and still surfing. Take care and keep afloat.
I’m a week off nine months since I cold turkeyed and I feel well. Yes, I honestly feel very well. I do have stiffness at night but little else now. I only hope it lasts but fear I may have to practice my surfing skills again one day.
I hope your wave soon breaks and sets you free.
Rosalind
Not everyone has a horrific withdrawal. You are proof of that! Awesome. Thanks for reminding us that some of us don’t go through hell. Keep feeling good.
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Your comments are always so cheerful jenn…don’t know how you keep smiling through this…but I’m always glad to read your uplifting attitude in your words. One foot in front of the other…that’s all we can do….
Thank you Jennifer. Keep on surfing, my friend. You are doing great – the best you can! x Kim
Thank you for still posting – it is so helpful to us!
Date: Thu, 15 Aug 2013 17:30:02 +0000 To: kimberly600@hotmail.com
Sorry you are having a wave again! Your right, if we don’t have hope, what do we have!!
Would you please let me know what effect are experienced on those in withdrawal if they increase their dosage while on a taper? I took more than i have usually been taking (only for two days) and now feel awful ~ emotionally and physically. I would really appreciate your opinion on this.
Thank you