Thursday, March 5th, I was back on the road. I had the honor of meeting Os Hillman, the founder of Marketplace Leadership. I had a wonderful visit and learned a great deal. Friday I drove to meet Diane, his sister. (Diane introduced me to Os.) I had a lovely time with Diane in South Carolina. I wish I could have stayed longer, but Saturday morning I was on the road again, headed to Jacksonville. I’ve stayed here with another friend and I got to hunt for fossils on the beach (again!).
Tomorrow I am heading to Miami to stay with a benzo buddy and his wife. I’ll be in southern Florida until the 15th, then onto Arcadia. After that, I’ll be headed home through the lower states. I have to return the van March 31, so I have to watch my time as I drive west.
I can’t believe that I’m nearing the end of this three month pilgrimage. It feels as if I just started it a few days ago. I am enormously blessed to be able to undertake this journey and very blessed by the many, many, many, gifts I’ve been given and I’ve learned along the way. I go home a better person.
There were times in my recovery that I thought for certain i was doomed to a horrible existence. I was angry at God. I was angry at life. I had a hard time hanging onto hope. Today while I walked the beach looking for fossils, I took inventory of my life. I can’t believe how good I feel emotionally/mentally. I’m in such a good place. I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again: withdrawal changed me for the better. God used my suffering to polish me. I have an amazing life these days. Truly.
I’ll post part three of the steps to building confidence one day this week. I haven’t forgotten. I’m just busy with traveling and listening to people tell me their stories.
Hold on everyone. It gets better!
jenn
O sounds like fun! God sure does Amazing things. Great how U feel. Wish u safe riding š Its a better day for me..tho the sleep is off still..wouldnt do this w/out The Great and Mighty 1 who brought this post as support. Yes the hopeless feelings in still states that seem 2 overwhelm š I have had healthy food. I get some help @ a local mrkt they call it but was a pantry every 2 mos. Realize that makes a difference. Gluten freee and organic. No fake sugars..Eat fruit and veges..and..rice cakes n pnut buttr low sugar. Helps w/this hernia. 1 time back my counselor(havent seen in a while still but hopes) said tell this story of the trauma w/drugs–W/Ds to others..i finally, tho felt hyper telling some1 else @ the church, justified..mayb. If not well other xs may come..when in better states. THX so much Jennifer! Look 4ward to more n complete Healing š God Bless O:-)
that’s incredible news. Considering your emotions from your mind cause all other sxs to flare, I think you made the perfect choice doing something that would make you feel good anyway. Glad you passed the precipice of recovery. You deserve it. =) Hope it continues. Wish I had the same opportunity awaiting me.
Thanks again Jenn, for posting and God bless every bit of you. I soak in your words of delight and live vicariously through you and others right now. My husband and I used to love walking on beaches and collecting shells together. After reading how you sat and looked at your fossils while still sick, I decided to sit and look at my shells and imagine those times on the beach. It transports me for a few minutes. One day soon, I hope to walk on beaches again. Right now, I love reading about your life and its adventures. Stay safe and sound and know that you travel amidst so much love. Please keep posting for those of us who love reading of your new found glory.
Jennifer,
Thank you for your posts I look forward to them every day.
Blessings, Bobby