Thursday, March 5th, I was back on the road. I had the honor of meeting Os Hillman, the founder of Marketplace Leadership. I had a wonderful visit and learned a great deal. Friday I drove to meet Diane, his sister. (Diane introduced me to Os.) I had a lovely time with Diane in South Carolina. I wish I could have stayed longer, but Saturday morning I was on the road again, headed to Jacksonville. I’ve stayed here with another friend and I got to hunt for fossils on the beach (again!).
Tomorrow I am heading to Miami to stay with a benzo buddy and his wife. I’ll be in southern Florida until the 15th, then onto Arcadia. After that, I’ll be headed home through the lower states. I have to return the van March 31, so I have to watch my time as I drive west.
I can’t believe that I’m nearing the end of this three month pilgrimage. It feels as if I just started it a few days ago. I am enormously blessed to be able to undertake this journey and very blessed by the many, many, many, gifts I’ve been given and I’ve learned along the way. I go home a better person.
There were times in my recovery that I thought for certain i was doomed to a horrible existence. I was angry at God. I was angry at life. I had a hard time hanging onto hope. Today while I walked the beach looking for fossils, I took inventory of my life. I can’t believe how good I feel emotionally/mentally. I’m in such a good place. I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again: withdrawal changed me for the better. God used my suffering to polish me. I have an amazing life these days. Truly.
I’ll post part three of the steps to building confidence one day this week. I haven’t forgotten. I’m just busy with traveling and listening to people tell me their stories.
Hold on everyone. It gets better!