I’m already planning my next move: onto Boulder and some surrounding towns to visit some benzo buddies, then headed to Monteagle Tennessee. A benzo buddy has graciously offered me and Shakespeare the use of her summer cabin. (Thank you!)
Anyone along that travel path who would like to say hello?
I’m enjoying talking to people, and learning what they have to say about resilience. Over and over again the key factor that keeps popping up in interviews is hope. Seems it is a universal factor that we need in order to transform ourselves from the current adversity we face.
A personal lesson I am learning over and over on this trip is that I need/want to hone my skills in letting go. I drove to my old house here in Basalt, Co. this morning. I parked the van and snapped a picture. I was flooded by both good and sad/bad feelings, some very intense. I took Shakespeare out for a long walk to cope with my feelings. What I have concluded is I need to let go of that chapter in my life. It is over. (It’s been over for a long time, actually.) I have wonderful memories, but I need to move on emotionally. There will be other homes I will live in. There will one day be grandchildren to love and nurture. There will be meaningful work again, too. The coolest thing about the future is that I am sober and benzo free!
I’m doing my best to attend a screening of a movie tonight in Aspen. It is a short film about a 92 year old war veteran who turned to fishing, nature, family and friends to be resilient in the face of his war wounds (PTSD). In his interview he suggested that people facing adversity face outwards, instead of inwards. Be of service to someone or something other than youserlf. I agree. My garden was a huge help to me as I coped with healing.
So there you have it for today: hope, letting go, and turning outwards… all a part of being resilient in the face of any challenging time.
Blessings to you all from the road,
Jennifer
Face outward instead of inward.. Couldn’t agree more 🙂 be safe on your journey!
The world is your oyster now Jennifer. Being sober and drug free, you can accomplish anything you set out to do. I think this next season of your life is going to be awesome in so many different ways. Can’t wait to see how it all plays out. Be safe and God bless.
Hard to say good bye to a meaningful part of your life. I still yearn for my old house where I raised my kids and where so many important, and precious memories were made. For me, the empty nest, moving to another home far removed from where I lived and the onset of w/d created a huge emotional and physical turmoil for me. But moving forward is our only choice…and you are doing it in a big way…wow! Be very careful as you head East…the weather can be frightful. I was wondering if you could stay in hostels as you come East….they are safe and warm. Just a thought. Take good care of you and Shakespeare…we had a dog who looked just like him….I’ll try to send a pic….be safe! Godspeed!
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I’m a Boulder girl. It’s beautiful here right now 🙂
I hope to be in that hopeful, warm place of peace someday soon. Congratulations on getting there! Hard work, determination, lots of support and prayers get you there. Godspeed.
Take good care Jenn on your journey. I love reading your posts and am thrilled for you. Stay safe and warm if you head into cold weather
Folowing your trip with interest and admiration.
You are a wonderful brave woman.
Your words of wisdom came to me like a balm right now that I’m struggling with an awful wave of dysphoria-anxiety-DP….I cling to your words:”letting go and having hope….”
Hugs all the way from tiny CR to you.
I hope you have a nice trip, I wish you could stop by Salt Lake City, UT , I would love to meet with you. After almost 2 years I still having issues, thanks for all your help through you blog, I’m thankful to have you!
Jenifer I’m so thankful you are doing this and letting us follow you on your journey. I feel like this trip will help not only you but so many others as they go on this journey with you as you let us know how things are going. I know it has helped me, for instance, the old house that you grew up in I’m sure it held a lot of memories both good and bad but by you accepting and letting go and realizing there would be other homes where you can make memories has made me feel there is hope past benzo’s! Thank you so much for sharing this incredible journey with us! Please be safe and stay warm. Thanks again for letting all of us follow you on this great journey
Jenifer Thank you so much for letting us follow you on this incredible journey! It has helped me realize there is a life after benzo’s. This last entry where you went by your old home has also helped me realize there maybe things we have lost in this tangled web of benzo’s and things that we may never get back again but we can look forward to the future! There are some things we just have to count as loss and move on and as you wrote this it reminded me that I need to work on just LETTING GO… Thank you so much for taking us on this adventure with you! Please be safe and stay warm! Looking forward to your next post. <3
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