When I tell people I am in benzo withdrawal from a cold turkey that took place June 22, 2011, they look at me like I am crazy. How can it be that it takes so long to withdraw from a drug? I understand their question and their disbelief. I find it easier for people to understand I am experiencing benzo withdrawal syndrome. Recovery from benzos take a long time as they damaged the brain.
I never abused klonopin, nor did I crave it. I took it as directed as I was told I had a “bad brain” and I would need the drug for the rest of my life. Psychiatrists like to compare what they feel is the need for a benzo like a diabetic needs insulin, even though there are no tests to prove that anyone has a “benzo deficiency.” I was put on Klonopin because I had anxiety attacks and was anxious. I had a great deal of trauma in my life when I turned to a doctor to help me. Over the years I began to have medical issues that I now know where directly related to Klonopin and tolerance withdrawal.
I no longer have IBS, bladder problems, stomach problems, or exercise intolerance. I don’t have burning pain in my esophagus. Nor do I have the weird balance issues I had while taking Klonopin.
I am still healing, no doubt, but I am starting to feel more hope than despair, and joy is creeping back in. I feel almost childlike at times as I look at the world through new eyes. I have waited a very long time to feel this hopeful about my healing and my future.
Benzo withdrawal syndrome is a very well documented set of symptoms and experiences from people who have struggled to heal from it.
Most doctors are ignorant about it, telling patients that their problems are all in their heads, or that their underlying condition has returned.
If you or someone you love is on a benzo, I hope you will research the drug and the complications that can occur getting free from it.
For those finding your way out of the darkness and into the light, keep fighting!
One day, benzo withdrawal syndrome will end. I am looking forward to that day!!