“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)
No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we can be forgiven. We set about to right our wrongs, first by making a list of the people we have harmed, our transgressions, then we step into action and make amends. It takes courage to own up to our wrongdoings, and it takes courage to tell someone we know we harmed them, and that we are sorry. Of course, we don’t tell someone about the harm we did if to do would harm them (again) in any way. You wouldn’t tell the spouse of someone you committed adultery with about the affair, for example.
How do we go about owning up to the dark shadows of ourselves? We ask God to help us. We pray as we write our list. We pray before we speak to people and ask for forgiveness. We can rest assured that God will guide our pen and our tongue. God knew that man would sin. In fact, sin was part of the divine plan. We are flawed by design. God planned all along to send His son to redeem us. Knowing that sin is part of our nature helps us face our darkness. It doesn’t, however, excuse us from attempting to live more in the light than in the shadow.
Recovery is an amazing gift. We have the clarity to see our wrongdoings and to ask for forgiveness. We get a second chance. And a third. And a fourth… All we need to do is to face our mistakes and ask for forgiveness. Then we set about to do our best to not make the same mistakes and to avoid new ones, to the best of our ability. We ask for God’s help in all of our affairs, knowing that God will help keep us in the light, and out of dark shadows of our lives.