It’s Thursday. Cue the Beach Boy’s music.
I’m surfing a big wave.
I will be 26 months out on the 23rd.
I was having some good windows and a great deal of hope. Still have the hope, but the window slammed shut.
I will ride this one out just as I have all the others.
Looking at dogs to adopt to keep me company in the garden. One looked really sweet, she only had three legs! I can identify with having a handicap.
If you are struggling today as I am, please do your best to distract and to detach. I am working very hard at not having any expectations about my recovery anymore, and taking each day as it comes at me.
I don’t know if there is anything after this life, so I am going to do my very best to make the most of this one, limping along, but grateful and hopeful.
If you are out a long time like I am and wonder if your symptoms are still withdrawal (How on God’s green earth can it last THIS LONG?) I can say, yes, your symptoms are probably still benzo withdrawal syndrome induced. But please see a doctor if you are worried.
I started this journey October 2010. That was my tapering start. I CT june 2011.
What a journey. That’s all I know to say.
Hold on everyone. The vets say we heal. I am going to believe them. What other option do I have? 🙂
Ok, gotta scoot and pull on my wetsuit, and find my board. Wheeeeeee!!!