Dear Fellow benzo buddies,
This is my last post. I need to focus all of my attention on my new business. I wanted to give you all fair warning, so if there are any old posts you want to copy, you can copy them before I shut this site down. It has been an honor to be able to share my own healing journey with you, and to hear of your stories. Thank you for sharing with me your deepest pains, and your sweetest joys.
People ask if I am healed. No, I am not. I have a ways to go. I think my story is best reflected in Kate Faye’s story. She writes about people taking three years to heal. I am 25 months out and woke up today back in a pretty nasty wave. So, I clearly am still healing.
On good days I have all the hope in the world that I will heal and these past few years become a distant memory. On mornings like today, I too, just like you, worry that I will never heal and that these symptoms will be with me till my dying day. I guess time will tell for all of us.
However, I AM out in the world and functioning. I am excited about the gardens I am now designing and doing horticultural therapy in.
Please keep holding on. Keep cobbling the days together. Eventually symptoms will begin to drop off or fade away. I am worlds better than I was even a year ago. And light years better than when I stopped cold turkey. You will continue to get better too.
Thank you all for reading my posts, and writing to me, sharing your stories with me. I am grateful to have had everyone’s support and friendship. I wish you all the very best of healing.
If you want ideas for your own healing garden, please don’t hesitate to drop me a line. I have been helping a few people in withdrawal, free of charge, to get a garden started so they too can harness the power of mother nature to assist in healing. I can’t coach anyone about withdrawal, but I can sure help you pick out some amazing flowers and veggies that you can take care of and distract yourself from withdrawal.
This website will be closed on Sunday.
Continue to heal. I will too.